Selamat Bertambah Usia, Mamak...

Happy Bday, Mom....

Mamak in her style

30 Mei, 49 tahun yang lalu, beliau yang kupanggil mamak baru saja dilahirkan ke dunia, dan sekarang, dia pun telah melahirkan 6 orang anak, saya salah satunya, si sulung.

Mamak bukan sosok ibu yang kerap membantu kami mengerjaan pe-er, bukan pula sosok ibu yang gemar bersosialita dan bergaya seperti ibu kebanyakan. Mamak hanya sosok sederhana, berbadan besar, dan masih kerap memarahi kami jika berbuat kesalahan atau membuat beliau jengkel.

karena hidup itu lucu...

diberondong masalah bertubi-tubi dengan oknum yang sama, membuatku menjadi begitu terpuruk minggu-minggu ini...
ya... I've a bunch trouble with my dad, the only man who I really really love in this world...

dan setelah insiden kabur dari rumah (mungkin tepatnya didepak dari rumah), menyendiri, menjalani hidup normal selama 3 hari, kembali ke rumah, menjalani kehidupan tidak normal kembali -yang dipaksakan untuk menjadi normal-, kerja siang malam, kembali membolos kuliah demi kerjaan, dimarahin-seperti biasa-karena ngga ada kerjaan, dan akhirnya kembali terjadi masalah dengan orang yang sama, my only one beloved dad...

this is not a given up, this is a sign to be peace with our own self

last nite is the 3rd nite I far away from dad,

let's say, my escape... ouch.. it's sound that I'm a little rebel girl...

then, surprise me..

dad came and talk to me...

of course with his egoistic as a dad, as usual dad in the world, hehehe

but, *underline this* I do love him..

you know what I mean with 'egoistic dad' character?

it's a kind like someone older ( re : parents ) who actually need us, but they use a discredit way to pretend that they didn't need us - oh, I hope you can understand what I mean to , it's a complicated to describe, hehehe -

letter to dad

dear my beloved dad 

-  the best ever dad in the world -

Maybe I couldn't remember the first time you saw me

Maybe I couldn't remember the first thing that you did to me

Ya.. I even couldn't remember the first word that I said to you

And I sure, we have the same problem, right dad?'