Euro Trip (still) Day 4 (01 June 2012) : When was the last time you did something for the first time ?

Still in my 1st day at Brussel...

Setelah rehat bentar, Sofia langsung ngeinterview dengan segudang pertanyaan tentang agama gue, jilbab gue, traveling kemana aja, dll

Dan bonusnya gue pake basa basi ngomong “I heard Brussel famous with its waffle” *modus banget ya, wkkww*

“Ah, ya ya... we have one here, from Almudena, she’s work in Hagen Daazs, so she's always bring us free waffle or free ice cream”

ah sounds nice...

Maka dijamulah gue dengan waffle + ice cream sambil tetap sharing cerita tentang banyak hal.

Sofia, Nanna dan Almudena, mereka lah ketiga orang host gue di Brussel. Dan gue adalah Couchsurfer pertama yang mereka terima di apartemen mereka yang bisa dibilang masih baru pindah 1 bulan lalu.

Sofia aslinya adalah orang Argentina, dia guru, tapi sekarang udah punya paspor Italy, karena pas dia traveling, dia jatuh cinta sama Eropa, khususnya Brussel, dan akhirnya ngurus pembuatan paspor Italynya, dan sekarang dia resmi jadi warga negara Uni Eropa. Dia kenal Nanna lewat Couchsurfing, dan kenal Almudena lewat temannya yang lain, karena Almudena bukan anak CS. Mereka bertiga akhirnya temenan selama 1 tahunan dan kemudian memutuskan buat tinggal bareng *ah, sounds romantic ya, hahaha

Euro Trip Day 4 (01 June 2012) : Perjalanan (religius) di Brussel

Finally, setelah 4 jam perjalanan by bus dengan pemandangan yang sumpah keren banget di kanan kirinya, semuanya hijaaauu segar, nyampe juga di Bruseel... Agak shock di awal karena pas melek eh ada resto Halal, dan banyak banget orang-orang pakai jilbab di jalan-jalan yang gue lewatin, jadinya tiba-tiba berasa aman :D

view dari Paris ke Brussel

Badai Pasti Berlalu

Foto di atas dan beberapa lagi foto di bawah adalah foto-foto yang diambil setelah badai besar, dan siapa sangka hasilnya sangat cantik dan menakjubkan, seakan tidak pernah ada badai yang menghantam dan memorandakkannya.

Buat gue, itulah kehidupan...  ada beberapa momen dalam hidup yang kelak akan dihantam badai, siap atau tidak, badai akan datang, tidak peduli seberapa kuat kau berdoa, tidak peduli seberapa matang persiapan kita, tidak peduli seberapa besar nyali kita dalam hidup, akan selalu ada badai yang datang dan menghantam kehidupan kita, dan itu bukan cuman sekali, berkali-kali.

Persimpangan

2012 memang tahun yang sangat bersahabat buat gue, entah kenapa, mungkin karena di 2011 kemarin gue udah memantapkan diri dengan segala mimpi-mimpi yang gue akan wujudkan di tahun 2012.

Sampai akhirnya gue dihadapkan pada sebuah persimpangan jalan, jalan gue yang awalnya cuman lurus-lusur aja tiba2 di suatu titik berubah menjadi 2, dan di sinilah gue sekarang, berada di persimpangan, antara melanjutkan jalan yang sedari awal gue bangun, ataukah mencoba mengambil resiko dengan melewati jalan yang baru.

Gue tahu kalau kedua jalan ini akan ngebawa gue ke akhir yang sama, ke mimpi-mimpi yang sama, hanya saja di jalan pertama semua sudah terarah, gue udah punya target demi target, belokan demi belokan mana yang harus gue lalui, tapi di jalan kedua? gue sama sekali buta... hanya ngandalin perasaan dan well, jujur aja ada ego yang terlibat disana..

Should I ?

Should I break my promise?
Should I pretend that everything is going well?
Should I regret what I should do but I didnt?
Should I ignore what my heart ask to do?
Should I ?

Random Post #1

Huwaa.... finally.... back to the blogging..... 

Udah luaaaamaaaa banget ngga nge-posting...

Dan ngga tau kenapa malam ini tiba-tiba pengen nulis...

Tapi, maaf ya kalau tulisan kali ini bakalan random abis... soalnya gue sendiri masih bingung mau nulis apa...

Hhmm... gue mulai dari kegiatan gue akhir-akhir ini ya...

Ini list beberapa hal yang menurut gue cukup keren udah gue lakuin *halah* :

Dengan Sederhana

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana

dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu  

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana 

dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada..

- Aku Ingin, Sapardi Djoko Damono -

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 

Tepat 3 tahun silam,

kau berikan aku secarik kertas berisi puisi itu,

dengan sederhana...

Tidak dengan hiasan bunga ataupun pesta besar,

tapi hanya dengan sekotak kecil yang kau isi dengan cincin yang juga sederhana...

A Little Thing Called Love

yyaaaaayyy..... I'm baaaacckk.... *punch* :D

anyway I'm in a really good mood to write ... because I just cried, sounds strange, eh?

Yup... I just cried because this silly stupid funny movie...

maybe you wondering why I cried when I watched a funny movie...

because the story was so touching and was soooo me... it's seems my story at the past... 

I'm not gonna review this movie, you can find it in google-he knows everything- or you can read here

Live is unpredictable

Hi, I AM HAPPY AGAIN, yeaaahh...

you never know how the universe give you some surprise in a same time...
yesterday I told you about my happiest day in this month and alhamdulillah today I did it again...
I wake up lately, and I enjoy it...
and at 10 AM when I am still on a way to wake up, you know is just like you already woke up but you still make a lazy movement on a bed with a half open eyes, my father told me that he will go, all my families went to my uncle's home to make a kind of ceremony to remember my 1000's days since my auntie die...

Happy

Friday, 24th Desember...
one day before x-mas day, happy x- mas for anyone who celebrate it...
anyway I'm a moslem... :D

it was my happiest day in this few weeks, after all the hard things happen, after all the problem starting to annoyed, after all the exam on process to be done... Yeah... it was really really my happiest day in this month...

sometimes we need to lie

I am a liar...

not once, but in many times, many conditions, many ways...

ya... I am a big liar, who doesn't? We all a liar, you, your family, your love, your besties, your enemy, all people in the world is a liar...

sometimes we lie to protect our self, or to hide something, or maybe to protect someone we love, or something we like... we are lying in difference reason, and even we know that's wrong, but we have no choice.... no no no... we have no choice... ya, we always have a choice, we can choose to be honest, no matter the result, but sometimes we too scared to admit it, we scare we'll get anger, we scare we'll loose what we like or love, ya... we, people-human being, are too scare, either the effect to ourself or to somebody else or something else... that's why we lie..

and today, I did it..

I am lying...

I am a big liar...

project #1

yesterday when I got a trap in a big trouble damn sucks traffic jam, actually it's not a traffic jam, it was a result of some stupid who called their self as a college student but their behavior worse than a uneducated person... they said they was celebrate anti-corruption day, but OMG, what they did just make a huge trouble, a very very huge trouble...

make a jam for almost 10 hours, throw a lot of stones, and many things more that were so stupid...

there are some pics that will show you how terrible yesterday...

karena hidup itu lucu...

diberondong masalah bertubi-tubi dengan oknum yang sama, membuatku menjadi begitu terpuruk minggu-minggu ini...
ya... I've a bunch trouble with my dad, the only man who I really really love in this world...

dan setelah insiden kabur dari rumah (mungkin tepatnya didepak dari rumah), menyendiri, menjalani hidup normal selama 3 hari, kembali ke rumah, menjalani kehidupan tidak normal kembali -yang dipaksakan untuk menjadi normal-, kerja siang malam, kembali membolos kuliah demi kerjaan, dimarahin-seperti biasa-karena ngga ada kerjaan, dan akhirnya kembali terjadi masalah dengan orang yang sama, my only one beloved dad...

bapak...

bapak...
aku sayang, sayang sekali padamu...
teramat sayang...
kau tahu bagaimana pedihnya diriku ketika jauh darimu...
aku menangis, pak..
menangis ketika mereka semua terlelap dalam damai...
aku menangis dalam diamku, bapak...
dan kau tau... itu jauh lebih menyakitkan dibandingkan meraung...
pedih, melebihi irisan apapun...

this is not a given up, this is a sign to be peace with our own self

last nite is the 3rd nite I far away from dad,

let's say, my escape... ouch.. it's sound that I'm a little rebel girl...

then, surprise me..

dad came and talk to me...

of course with his egoistic as a dad, as usual dad in the world, hehehe

but, *underline this* I do love him..

you know what I mean with 'egoistic dad' character?

it's a kind like someone older ( re : parents ) who actually need us, but they use a discredit way to pretend that they didn't need us - oh, I hope you can understand what I mean to , it's a complicated to describe, hehehe -

letter to dad

dear my beloved dad 

-  the best ever dad in the world -

Maybe I couldn't remember the first time you saw me

Maybe I couldn't remember the first thing that you did to me

Ya.. I even couldn't remember the first word that I said to you

And I sure, we have the same problem, right dad?'

dancing even you're not the one who invited

don't you know how life's work?

don't you know how meaningful life it is?

don't you know that life is more than just black and white?

don't you know there are a million colors from life that you can paint?

don't you know that? because I'm not...

the 1st step

time is moving...

second by second...

minute to hours...

day by day...

month to years...

yeah... we all not the same anymore like yesterday...

did we remember the best moment in our past?

did we remember the saddest moment in our life before?

we all moving on...

no matter how worst the past

no matter the curiosity in the future

no matter how

we all moving on

like when we were child,

we were born as a holy creature

we didn't know what we'll get in the future

but we still moving on

we're moving on from our 1st step,

since we know how to stand by our own feet

since we know how to walk on the road

since we know how to run 

since we know how to dance

we all moving on

no matter how, no matter why

we all moving on